The world Cleansing... (in a crashing halt)

Everything is so screw up, and so top notch. I don't know how things turn this good and this bad. I know I have to take as it is, but just maybe the answer the eternal question of "why" will never be answer. At least, everything that has come to happend in the last few weeks are eye poping things. I know for sure that more things are heading this way, and more dramatic (hollywood esque-sequences) are sure to come too. I can't see why my life has to come to this, to a soap opera; friends have come and gone in blink of an eye, everything seems so different. I know I made so awful choices and some dignifying ones, I've tried my best to come clean with everything, but that doesn't mean everyone is gonna like it or let it go. I can enjoy everything I've done and regret everything that I miss to do... but no thing is certain. I can't deny that I feel so complete and empty at the same time... things that come to pass usually got me feeling like crap, but everything turn out so well or so wrong, that I just can't sit on my laurels... I still have to be on the move, if I manage to let everybody down, my bad. But I can't be with anyone unless I be myself, and let everyone know how I think... how do I feel about them, how to make them better persons. If that is a sin or something that anybody can't take, there is no point of being around me at all, most people know how severe and how direct I can get... so hold no barrels. I do touch my inner feelings time from time, manage to get emotional about things, but that's not how I am anymore, no more sentimental... just plain and straight truth. You don't like it? There are a couple of persons that'll agree with you... maybe a handful. I asked no one to like me... if they don't is their loss, not mine... I know how much I've changed... I feel more mature, so if anyone can't keep up, I'll find someone who can... I'll be the better man... the better person... just watch.