I'm just an empty seat

I trying to found answers to questions I did not asked... the problemn is within me, but I still can't manage to past it through. Anyways, nowadays I found myself trying to cherish my inner moments... trying to keep in touch with me, no matter what the cost, because... I tend to eat myself up. I don't know where it'll end, or where I'll end... but as things start to flow in a different manner, I'll have new ways to deal with them. I don't know what I'll find typing here, but I know what I'll not: myself, pounding my head. The cost of the past, is getting higher and higher, by the minute... I don't know how much will I take. But as long that I'm next to a empty seat I'll be fine... cuz, no matter what I fill in it, the company of someone, in this harsh moments, is a blessing. Anyways... no matter what, I'll try not to fill my seat, cuz' the moment that happends... I'll know that my mind will tear me up.